All of a sudden, I am awake
and the sea is licking round my feet.
A wall of muddy grey fringed with white
assaults my mind and spirit
jostling me from sleep.
A wave has broken.
I am alive.
Felix stands on the sea’s edge;
hardly a split second’s pause
before he is stumbling forward, fearless
into the waves, embracing the ocean,
saying yes, yes I will, yes
to his new friend.
I have been sleep-walking,
a spectator, unable to grasp this new role,
the forgotten skills of grand-parenting
lost in the wreckage that is Covid.
Standing bemused in playgrounds,
waiting for the light to dawn.
Suddenly, I am woken by the waves,
remembering what life consists of,
remembering how to say yes,
remembering how to say no,
remembering what makes me who I am.
Child of the sea.
Julia Duke